The First Day of School is exciting and scary for the kids and the parents. Last night I saw this in both of my children as we went to the Meet the Teacher Night. That night, Norah was super excited and Ben was so scared. Eunkyung and I had to hold Ben the entire time. And I realized that both of my kids have expressed the way that I am feeling inside. I am excited for them but also nervous. Norah was the excited half while Ben was the nervous half.
Norah is excited because she gets to be in a new classroom, see her friends, and be with a new teacher. Ben is scared because he doesn’t like leaving the comforts of home, being away from Mom and Dad. To be honest, I totally get both of their feelings, they are built up inside me. I am excited for the children to be in new classroom, expanding their minds, to learn new things, to be with a new teacher, and find connection with kids their own age. At the same time, I hate to see them go, and be away from me.
It’s quite ironic in a way because all throughout summer, all I asked for was some quiet time away from the kids! They were home all summer, and I had to deal with a lot of conflict between them, I had to serve them a ton, I had a ton of interruptions in my work and daily routine, and as much as I wanted to take a nice long nap, well, you can count that out!
But now is the moment in which God is giving me what I long desire. Time away from the children, a chance to relax, and sending them to a safe place that they will learn, connect with others, and be with a knowledgeable and skilled guide. And now I feel the loss of having noise, chatter, and falling objects in my house. Quiet and peaceful, while I still wonder at my desk if my kids are enjoying their time away from Mom and Dad.
Oh well, Norah starts on Wednesday and Ben still has a few more days before he starts. The only thing I can do is stay positive and pray to God that they will always be in good hands.
Hey this is Rev. Brian Choi's random thought throughout my week. Most of this stuff, will probably be about family, church, fishing, music, movies, food, whatever I think of, hopefully it will have some sort of theological reflection (maybe).