First Day of School

The First Day of School is exciting and scary for the kids and the parents.  Last night I saw this in both of my children as we went to the Meet the Teacher Night.  That night, Norah was super excited and Ben was so scared.  Eunkyung and I had to hold Ben the entire time.  And I realized that both of my kids have expressed the way that I am feeling inside.  I am excited for them but also nervous.  Norah was the excited half while Ben was the nervous half.
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Norah is excited because she gets to be in a new classroom, see her friends, and be with a new teacher.  Ben is scared because he doesn’t like leaving the comforts of home, being away from Mom and Dad.  To be honest, I totally get both of their feelings, they are built up inside me.  I am excited for the children to be in new classroom, expanding their minds, to learn new things, to be with a new teacher, and find connection with kids their own age.  At the same time, I hate to see them go, and be away from me. 

It’s quite ironic in a way because all throughout summer, all I asked for was some quiet time away from the kids!  They were home all summer, and I had to deal with a lot of conflict between them, I had to serve them a ton, I had a ton of interruptions in my work and daily routine, and as much as I wanted to take a nice long nap, well, you can count that out!

But now is the moment in which God is giving me what I long desire.  Time away from the children, a chance to relax, and sending them to a safe place that they will learn, connect with others, and be with a knowledgeable and skilled guide.  And now I feel the loss of having noise, chatter, and falling objects in my house.  Quiet and peaceful, while I still wonder at my desk if my kids are enjoying their time away from Mom and Dad. 

Oh well, Norah starts on Wednesday and Ben still has a few more days before he starts.  The only thing I can do is stay positive and pray to God that they will always be in good hands.  

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