I noticed when Norah does virtual learning for her school, I feel like I am always one step behind in her coursework. I am starting to realize that is not enough time in the day to get this stuff done. Most of the things she is doing it’s too difficult for her, but it is taking the time for her to learn how to use the tablet and how we are to post her work on which message board, what folder, and constantly new things we have to do to submit such work. Some of the things we have no idea how to do it because we don’t know what her password is in one of her classes. So far the school or teacher hasn’t mentioned anything, so I assume all is good. But I just can’t get that nagging feeling in my head that I am causing my child to be one step behind in stuff.
I feel like I need to be more active in helping her do her school work, but it’s hard. Having the kids at home causes a whirlwind of stuff to do. Norah’s here doing school, but at the same time I have to do my work and at the same time I have to keep Ben entertained so he doesn’t yell or scream or cry or bother Norah while she is studying. My wife and I feel like we are just juggling through our responsibilities, trying to do everything all at once or needing to pick and choose what do to, while neglecting the other duty or child. But I think feeling this way is natural. I think most people always feel like they are one step behind or they are not good enough in something.
When I feel this way I am always reminded the Bible passage, Matthew 6:25-31. You know that passage about not worrying. Jesus illustrates that the birds do not sow, reap or store food in barns yet God always feeds them. And God tells us that we are more valuable than birds. Isn’t that nice? Doesn’t that make you feel good? Well it at least points me in the right direction. Do not try to worry too much, everything will be OK.
But it’s hard to feel like you can’t get everything done in that day. So, Norah is like two days behind in her homework… soon to be three days. The teacher is really nice and told me not to worry about it since she is doing good, but at the same time I want to teach her good work ethics. To make sure we get everything done on time. But so far we have been late. And I can’t help but not get the MxPx song, “Late Again” out of my head. Great song in general… check it out. Just heads up… it’s loud…
“Late again, Forgive me friends,
For I am late again,
Til’ the day I die, Lord knows I’ll try, ‘
Cause I’m still late again.”
But, I must remember, like what Norah’s teacher is saying, what the Gospel of Matthew is saying, “Don’t worry about it.” I feel like God is sending me messages letting me know, everything will be OK, so do not sweat it. And I think that is something we should always remember is how God speaks to us just so we can get the message through out think heads! What more can God do to send this message. The Bible, Norah’s teacher, and MxPx.
“With all the saints, that don't place blame
On sunshine, rain or snow,
Believe me 'cause I know.
That I'm Late again,
Forgive me friends,
For I am late again,
Til' the day I die, Lord knows I'll try,
'Cause I'm still late again.”
Right… I got it… I’m OK now.
Hey this is Rev. Brian Choi's random thought throughout my week. Most of this stuff, will probably be about family, church, fishing, music, movies, food, whatever I think of, hopefully it will have some sort of theological reflection (maybe).