So, a few nights ago, after I put the kids to sleep. It feels awfully too quiet. So out of curiosity I went upstairs to check on them. Norah, not quite asleep, but a little wiggly, Ben normally should be asleep is not. Lying on his back in the bed, with his arms up in front of his face. Cute and weird kid, but whatever. However, I noticed that there was something glistening from his middle finger. I could tell because of the ridiculously bright night light he keeps on while he sleeps. I could see this long, dangly, shimmering slime hanging on his finger about to fall on his face. It was a long piece of snot, that he was… I dunno..... enjoying?
I immediately said to him, “What are you doing?” He doesn’t respond but proceeded to want to wipe the goo on his shirt, which I promptly stopped and told him to wash his hands and go to sleep. I really have no clue what he was trying to do, why he was doing it, and what was he thinking. I will probably never know. But it made me realize that I find myself, asking my children, “what-are-you-doing” question a ton. It is quite common that I use this question every day, multiple of times.
Then I think about if that is what God is saying to us, every day multiple times. God must look be looking at us, and wondering, “What are you doing?”
And many times, we leave God speechless, and without any sort of response. Just think about it. God has a different perspective than us just as a parent has a different perspective than their children. So anything we do, especially when our lives seem to go off the rails, God must be asking us, “What are you doing?” It’s funny because God knows more than us. God can see every possibility of the choices we can make in our life. And ever though God is doing His best to steer us in the least harmful, least stressful, and most beneficial path, sometimes we go in a different direction, leaving God scratching His head and asking us, “What are you doing?”
Just remember when you feel your life is going off the rails, God is still there with you. And even if the process of getting back on the rails is slow and possibly painful, it might just be the path that God needs you to be to grow and mature into the being that He intended you to be. And even if you miss a turn that God needed you to take, have no fear because God is there to redirect you back on the right path. Never, think that all your struggles will last forever, they never do. Just be patient, trust in God, trust in His guidance.
Even though God may see us as mere children, lying in our beds with a long booger dangling from our fingers, ready to fall on our face, God still loves us! God may be confused in what we do what we do, and why we do it, but just like a loving parent, He is going to redirect us; telling us to wash your hands, and get some rest. Tomorrow will be another day that will be full of surprises, both good and bad. Life is long, so be patient, and live as if you have something to hope for, because life can be wonderful, fun, and full of clarity.
Hey this is Rev. Brian Choi's random thought throughout my week. Most of this stuff, will probably be about family, church, fishing, music, movies, food, whatever I think of, hopefully it will have some sort of theological reflection (maybe).